hMm, feeling kinda depressed. todae felt so out of sorts. i was toking with pauline and yuhui todae in class aft sch. then i suddenly said nxt year 2e2 wont be tgt, and i dunno yy, i started crying. i tot i wouldnt cry.. i guess i wasnt prepared enuff to sae those words out ba. then aft that, as me and pauline went down to the canteen, i said again, and ended up sobbing.... its like so sad la. 2 months are nearly over. which means 2e2`06 has less than 10 months to spend the time tgt. and that time, mr fauzil or dunno who, told us to treasure our times in this class. and that time i nearly wanted to cry already. good times are always so short. i dunwan to be separated frm this great class, this class, that's so helpful, with pauline, who is always there, to teach me, and tolerate me, jessie, who is always toking with me, playing and luffing together. meisiu, although shes kinda fierce, but shes rather nice, she really does understand me sometimes, liang rou, the cute girl, cory, the one always luffing, being with her is v nice, jennifer, a nice person to confide in, there are so many others.... who are all so nice to me.. i really cant bear the thought of not being able to tok to them. arghhh, this is making me teary again. shant tink about it.
aniwaes, todae on the way to sch, my father passed a place, that appears to juz happen a accident. apparently, a motorcyclist knocked down a dog, and the dog died. i was a bit shocked when i sae it, laying down there. this shows how vulnerable life is. u'll neber noe when u will be gone frm this world, away frm all ur frds.....
and, i heard frm pauline that, ms low wont be teaching us for v long. cos shes teaching a lot of other class. and this other freak frm nie will be replacing her. i dun understand. yy is 2e2 like some experimental thingy? we always change teacher, first ms bok, then ms ngo, now this stupid freak frm nie. i wan ms low. i wan my grades to improve, and it seemed that with that freak, my maths wont improve, it will juz deprove. hopefully this rumour is not true. and ms low can still continue to teach us.
i still cant think about not being able to be with 2e2`06 people...... i nid to stop...

oki. todae is juz a normal exam day.during english, we played this game called boogle. it was fun la. then during maths, we played this game, called rush hour. this one is v v v v fun. me and jessie were pairing up. and i laughed quite a lot. and the game is fun too. blah blah blah.
nxt, todae, 3 things happened, that made me quite happy la.
the 1st thing that happen, me, jessie, jen, lili, and jessie's sis went to cwp tgt, to eat. we ate mos burger. the strawberry shake damn nice i tell you! muz try. gonna drink it again. muahaha! and jen is so damn cute. we were goin down the escalator. then suddenly she stopped, and had this shocked look on her face. and we found out that she threw away 2 packets of her new-bought earrings. she actually thought it was litter. and we were sort of standing near the bin. but in the end jen did not go and pick the earrings up. hahs
then, we of cos went home. me and jen were sitting the same bus home. as we were waiting for 804, 806 came, and i suddenly heard a voice that was v familiar. i short of turned, and looked. and guess who i saw. i saw YUENSIN!!!!! my best frd in pri school. at first she din see me la. then she got up the bus lor. then as the bus moved, i saw her looking at my direction, and sort of smiling ba i guess. i dunno izzit becos she is toking to the person beside her, or whether izzit she recognise me. but i juz waved and smiled at her. but i shall juz take it as she recognise me. that time, was feeling quite happy. cos its like v long i din see yuensin le. then suddenly see her. quite happy. :DDD even if she din recognise me, oso nbm. hees
nxt, one 804, i saw hwee yung, and huichin. i din noe that hwee yung would recognise me. then when jen got off the bus, she turned and smiled at me aft a few stops. and i smile back. this time, feeling v v v happy. i cant believe it. aft i cut my hair, there are still some people who can recognise me. :/// as for hui chin. she got down the bus, and didnt smile at me. i dun tink she know i on same bus as her ba. hees.
so happy todae..!!! wee :DDDD

looking back at some stuffs that i used to liked in the past, i suddenly feel that those stuffs are so - childish. all the type of toys i used to plae, type of guys i used to like. and my attitude in the past totally sucks.
it so happen that the guy i liked in kindergarten is in the same sec sch as me now. he didnt really changed much during these few years. when i was in kindergarten, i felt that he was so shuai. but now, looking at him, it makes me amused, how come i liked this guy in kindergarten? this proud guy, this ugly looking guy, who used to call me stupid, when now, he's in normal acad while i, in express. okie, im nt being proud or wadd, besides im most probably the dumbest in the whole express lvl. i bet he doesnt recognise me, the girl who used to follow him ard, and toking to him, and letting him scold for no reason. its funny la. lol. and whenever i looked at him, i feel like puking at the old me. my taste totally sucks. ya ya. and tink about the guy i like in pri sch. looking back now, i feel like im totally stupid. this guy, is proud too, although his height is good, and he seemed good looking to me when i was in pri sch, now looking at him, he looks completely ugly, and wats worse, he is haughty. juz because he is clever. oh well, im such an idiot in the past. xD
i guess people do change. so i should stop thinking about the bad side of people, since i have such a bad attitude myself. i shud instead tink about the positive stuffs of those people. yuppppp.
its easy to tink about all these stuffs, but will it be easy to do them ?

thought about something recently. and i shall post it here. ://

i've been thinking. it's a miracle, how some people try to make themself seem so pro in everything. i mean, it's nice that u wanna do something that is good. but when u didnt manage to do it, why bother to claim that u was chosen to do it, but u dunwan to do. alright, it's getting complicated :// whatever~ dun understand oso ur problem, i shall juz post everything here.

take for example, performances. why do people lie to others saying that they were chosen to perform, but they themselves dunwan to ? when in actual fact, they didnt get chosen. hahs. and what's more atrocious, is that they kou shi xin fei ( in chinese ). it means that they kip saying "wow, i so lucky, din get chosen" then kip laughing at the people who get chosen, saying how pitiful they are to kena chosen. but in their hearts, they are feeling sad, and horrible, cos they didnt get chosen. pathetic people. cant people juz tell the truth, tt they din get chosen ? yy bother to lie? the truth will get found out soon. lying juz makes everything worse. and it makes me feel like laughing, whenever i look at the person who told this dumb lie -.- hahs. im laughing on the outside, at the same time, on the inside, im feeling absolutely DISGUSTED. hypocrites, who make themselves seem so pro , are in fact, juz a pile of shit. who tell awful lies, and they dun even tink, b4 they make such a dumb lie. make up a better lie nxt time my dear, so that it wont be found out that soon. yupppp. :D cry ba losers who does what i had said above. and i shall sae it once more, losers mentioned above, are juz a pile of shit. alright, i shant be that mean. i shall instead, correct it into " a pile of fresh shit." is this better ? yeah i guess so. :///

pathetic lifes those losers got. :)

okie, onto my life. todae was the total defence day commemoration. they invited people to gib a tok. was feeling slpy. and when i saw the cushion that they were giving out, they first thing that came into my mind was - wow, they so good, encouraging people to slp early in the morning. okie i noe its lame. xD

the tok was about conserving water i tink. but i simply tink its a complete waste of time, and money, for the school to hire people to come to gib such a talk. outcha the whole school hall, there will be people who are listening, meanwhile, there will oso be people who are not listening. even to those people who are listening, how many of them would actually take the talk seriously? outcha 10 people, i guess there'll oni be 2 people who goes home, and realliie conserve water. that might be a feat, to some people. but to me, it's not. to make people realliie understand the importancy of water, there ought to be some kinda real life thingy happening to those people. or else who will reallie understand. i bet even if real life events realliie occur on people, people will oni conserve water for a short period of time. once the incident happen long ago, a lot of people will sure stop conserving water, although there'll still be some, who will continue to conserve water. some people might disagree with me. but that's my point of view la.

okie, back to the topic. at the end of the talk, a fat fat cute cute bouncy bouncy thingy came out. its so cute! like so active liddat. hahs. liked that the most :DD

andddddddd, todae aft school. me and meisiu stayed in class, cos there was higher mother tongue, at "12.45" . then meisiu suddenly realised that the windows were not closed. arghhhhh... in the end me and meisiu closed the windows. the windows were kinda hard la. and i close till my blouse totally came out ( i folded my blouse at first. heehee xDDD ) den rushed to the room where we were having our hmt, and we waited for sooooo long. but no one came.. and when finally, we can see jen and jessie walking towards us, jessie told us that the chinese lesson was changed to 1pm. if we had known, we wouldnt had chiong down. zZzZZz whatever la! bleahsssssss

heehee, my post for the day.. naggy post. :DDD

CT1 nxt week ! arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

okie. i shall blog, even though CT1 is nt even here or over yet.
todae's valentine day! hMm, nth extraordinary happened. oni that frds gave me quite a lot of food to eat. lolol. thx to them =) i bought some stuffs for u guys too, tmr then gib u all, although belated, but how late could it be ? juz by a few hours lah :D
the "valentine" present mr rauf gave to us was GREAT. "serious!" he gave us ---- 3 ROUNDS ARD THE SCH ! EARLY IN THE MORNING!!!! ONE VALENTINE DAY!!!! arghhhhhhhh!! watever! shant be bothered by tt WOLF :/
the rest of the lessons were okie la. but aft p.e, im seriously feeling slpy. and wat's worse, right aft reccess, there's physics, taught by my dearest teacher i ever loved - ms ngo -.- shes good la. v knowledgable, but... shes kinda weird ba... tried to accept her as a good teacher. but realliie cannot. shes realliie "hypotising" me, encouraging me to go slp lor. in the end, din really paid attention to her as expected. hMm, and a bit pissed off. by some matters tt i shant sae here.. and dun ask me oso la. cos i wont sae de, unless u v close to me lor. =)
and oh ya! earnwen is not born for anyone to scold de. ty =] nxt time i hear ANYONE saying earnwen is born for (insert name here, anyone's name) to scold, i shall wacko u HARD. this applies to all, including those close to me. ty =D i dunwan to get said by people for ABSOLUTE no reason, and juz stare back like an idiot, i shall fight for wat i tink is right! so there! earnwen is born - to enjoy life. yupp. so buzz off damn ass people.
tmr there is choir. and before choir, there gonna be a few hours, and i gonna be with jessie, and having the risk of getting scolded by her :DDD LOL whatever~~~~
CT1 coming, every1 jiayou ba !
those who wished me ill, u shall get ur retributions, and im gonna prove to u! that im nt dumb okie. those who wished me good luck, thank you. good luck to yourself too =))))

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH!! not goin to school todae again... yst vomitted. oso dunno yy. i watching shows de time suddenly feel so cold then kip shivering , then a while later feel hot. then cold, then hot. -.- in the end not enuff time to walk to toilet, then vomit le. mum had to clean up the whole place. hais. den i went to slp, den slp de time suddenly high fever. dunno wadd the heck is the problem with me. zzzzzzz
todae gt choir, and im nt goin. gonna miss another choir practise. so sad. hais... and this is the 3rd time no go school le. realliie lagging behind A LOT. and all those days i din go de, all is tt type lesson end at 2PM de!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and all the lessons v impt de lor!!!!! damn la. this sat shud be goin to jessie's hse to do hmwk, and ask her to teach me those stuff tt teacher taught which i dunno.. BOOOHOOO.....

bleahss.. didnt go to school todae again. cos yst high fever, cough, flu, sore throat( actually is the dunno wadd "stick" in my throat is swollen, didnt hear wadd the doctor say, but i reckon is sore throat la. ) scared tt it will affect my voice. i beg tt it wont affect my voice, affect my toking voice nbm, dun affect my singing voice... pls pls... :( and when go clinic, the doctor measure my temp, then sae my temp 39.4. scare the hell outcha me. cos i measure de time oni 38.6 lor. i guess pik realliie spoil my thermometer le. bleahssssssssss. then gt a lot of medicine. and the fee is v ex lor. $72 . then on the way home, my dad kip saying, $72!!! xia si wo(in chinese) a bit guilty la. shud hab covered myself totally in blanket, then my mum wouldnt noe i hab high fever, then no nid see doctor le. :( hais.....
2nd time didnt go school le. and this is oni the 2nd month of the year, bleahsssssss...... tmr goin to school le. but todae's lessons v v v v v impt de. but i din go. die la, cham la. im lagging behind a lot. boohoohoo.....
someone , save me........ ='((((

arghh. still having tt idiotic fever, cough and flu. bleahssssss.. feel like dying liaos.
aniwaes, todae went out all the same. met grandaunt at a earlier timing. cos she wanna book the tickets for the movie. then went to food court to eat porridge. aft tt, jen and lili come to food court mit us. den cory went to mit her senior. me and lili and jen go cwp de cathay buy tickets. its like full house. left oni a few seats. we hab no choice but to buy front row de. FRONT ROW DE. EEEEEEEEE !!! but nbm la. the show was still nice. v touching. and shawn and joshua are SO DAMN SHUAI!!!! im falling in love with them xD LOL. they look so man. arghhh. i muz stop tinking. lol
aft tt go to metro to find swimming suit lor. found one sky blue de top. and the auntie sae match it with a dark blue shorts. total spend $50++++. hais. and i look v v v v v FAT in tt swim suit. arghhhhh... so sad la. i muz go jianfei le. boohoohoo
then on the train back to yishun, suddenly feel v v v sick. then leg v v v pain, head v v v v heavy, boooooo. i wan the cough to go away. I DUNWAN TO SPOIL MY VOICE. BOOHOOHOO.

IDIOTIC COUGH. SIAM LA. SHOO FAR FAR AWAY FRM ME. DAMN

bleahss. had a fever yst again. then kip feel so uncomfortable. wanna vomit. thx to pauline and pik for their concern =)
didnt sing during choir todae. sad. bleahssssssssss. jessie had an mc. so was kinda bored throughout the dae. but good thing meisiu and pik they all gt accompany me lah. or i realliie dunno wadd to do le, bored to death -.-
nth realliie happen todae. short post. xD hope i wont cough so much. hais

boo. todae was kinda suay lah. todae aft school, me jessie jennifer and lili, go to toilet mah. then jessie walk the other staircase. and it so happen that when we walking down the staircase, the bazzar teacher suddenly tell me, come here, i nid to talk to u. i was a bit shock lah. i was thinking, i not ur student, talk to me for wadd. little did i noe that he wanted to catch us, cos of our attire. dots. and im suay lah. it juz happen tt i didnt tuck in my shirt, i oni folded. zzz. shud not hab pulled it out. den he call us go toilet to tuck in our shirts properly then go find him again. then me lili and jen go toilet tuck in lor. den go see him de time, he sot la. he call me to get a bigger shirt. as if i so rich liddat. kip buy school uniform mehhh??? but in the end gt go buy. bought size 34 ! woohoo. big big big de. then can pull out more shirt. tt's wadd they wanted. their problem xD
fine. dunwan talk about this dumb thingy. nxt, aft kena caught by the teacher, we 3 go north point lor. to eat, and oso acc me go buy storybook. ate kfc, was bloated. heehee.den went up to popular, and was told tt memoirs of the geisha de book SOLD OUT le !!! zzzzzzz.... in the end gt to the topic about the sec 2 swimming program lor. den went to chong pang to look for swimming costume. and can u imagine it. chong pang has SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO many clothes shop. but oni 1 shop sold swimming costume.. dots right ??? ONE !!!! ONE !!!!!!!! zzz. so angry lah. but sae with jen and lili le. sat or sun, go watch [[ i not stupid 2 ]] den aft the movie go buy swimming costume lor. but dunno my mum allow a not. later then ask lah. todae was sucky lah. first kena caught, nxt went to chong pang, and outcha soooo many shops, oni one shop sold swimming costumes, tt are v ugly. -.-" WHATEVER !
shall enjoy tmr. although there's d&t, which i absolutely dunno how im gonna enjoy tt 2 torturous periods !!! -.-" but nbm, tmr gt choir. muahaha !